So I officially graduated from High School on May 21st, 2009. On that day I was a little nervous but I had a few good friends with me graduating that day too, I seen a few more of my friends in the crowd while walking into the huge ceremony, I kinda sorts hated that day cause I was FORCED to wear high heels.. thanks to Art Johnson, some important person apart of our school district, lol. But anyways, when I lined up to get my diploma I was really feeling good knowing I have finally made it through all the drama, tears, and annoyances, and that I didn't need to worry about the stupid fights anymore or random violence at that school, I was proud to call myself a Senior graduating that day along with a few of my good friends which I hope to see outside of school more often then most. I am going to miss some of the wonderful and inspiring teachers that worked with me and helped me reach my goal of getting through the madness at John I Leonard High, they always told me to never give up and just keep doing your best and I did. I wish I could thank them right now maybe I will next year when school starts up again, if it wasn't for my close friends and those wonderful teachers, and above all my loving family I wouldn't have made it, thank you guys for everything you've done. I love you all.

Well.. now I shall try my best to get into a Trade School and be taught and trained on how to be a vet assistant and I will do my best to achieve that goal as well.

Yay me and my friends who graduated! <3

Well.. for the last few weeks I have been trying really hard to hold all my feelings in, and so far.. I have failed a few times. I've been really stressed out and crying a lot lately.. and just feeling numb at school.. because my Grandmother is slowly dying from a lung diease.. everyday she has to wear a oxygen mask.. take all sorts of different medications.. and go to the doctor's quite often..

A few days ago my Grandmother had to go to the hostipal and she finally got back last night.. I've been so worry about her.. every day and every night.. sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night just to sneak into her room and make sure she's okay..

It is really hitting me now.. to watch her suffer like this.. I hate it.. I wish it would just all go away and never come back.. but it can't.. and it will never get better.. but at least one important thing is she's being brave and I am always talking to her and telling her I love her every chance I get..

When she does end up passing away.. I will miss her very much.. and I hope we have a few more months together.. I don't want her to leave us right away..

Just writing this.. makes me want to break down and curl up inside.. T.T

The title of this entry is true... I made a really huge mistake in calling a guy on the internet on a MMO baby.. because my fiancee found out.. he's really upset at me and I don't blame him.. I really am a stinking hoar.. I wish I could take everything back.. I wish I could make him happy.. but lately.. seems like I cant.. and like he says.. I FAIL.. big time.. I guess I am not a good lover after all...my friend said he isn't the right one for me.. but you know what he's wrong.. it's the other way around.. im not the one for him.. i believe he deserves better.. but he picked me.. he said he's not breaking up with me.. I am happy about that.. but im not happy with myself.. i should of never did that for i hurt him.. and i really really am sorry.. i really am.. a hoar.. i deserve.. nothing because i fail.. i dont care if others call me a hoar because its true i am one... anyways.. i am going to head to bed... maybe ill suffercate in my sleep..

Well school for me is ending soon and I am surprised at how fast time is flying by.. In December I will be leaving a lot of loved friends I adore from John I Leonard High.. I am going to miss all the precious memories and the fun randomness of every unique person I hangout with durning the morning, and lunch and also between classes. I hate the thought of leaving everyone because a lot is just like family to me.. when I do leave I hope they remember me and I hope they do their best at school.. because I want them to make it just like I did.

Proud Senior 2009

Love lots..

<3

I haven't been on DA in a long time because well I didn't feel like signing on. I am sorry if I worried you all.. if I even did which I probably didn't. But now I will try to take time out and sign in to check up on everything and I will probably start posting up new pictures and drawings again so.. I look forward to that.. anyways, thanks for reading if you do. o.o